Colleen’s Poetry Challenge – Afraid & Grave
The prompt words for Colleen’s Poetry Challenge this week are Afraid and Grave – #SynonymsOnly.
Eleven years ago this time, a drastic decision was made that changed my life. I was diagnosed with melanoma cancer in the female organ. The doctors proposed a treatment plan using a combination of five aggressive drugs. My daughter and I read the descriptions and the side effects of the drugs, I commented, “The drugs may kill me before killing the cancer.”
It was a tough decision to make and I had to make it fast. The caner went from stage II to stage IV in three months. Without the treatment, I would have died sooner. With the treatment, there was a chance to live. I wanted to live for a while longer to enjoy the reunion with my daughter after five years of isolation, seeing her only once during those years. I accepted the six months of harsh chemotherapy, three surgeries and one month of radiation. I’m grateful to be alive.
Not fear of dying
Soft yearning to stay alive
For the family
Note: I was in the fifteenth and final year of this experimental treatment plan. The are new options of cancer treatment developing every six months.